I've had a performance appraisal this afternoon covering the last 6 months. The period in question has been challenging to say the least. We started as a team of 3, one guy quit, we had to do a work around. Then after coming back on leave, the lead consultant (the other guy) had visa issues and had to go back to his home country, leaving me and another guy moved from another section to hold fort. Then another manager went on leave, and I've also covered for him.
In the midst of all the changes, I have yet to get a grip on my work and of course the boss picked out all the objectives that were expected of me and there was nothing to say in my defence. I think I wore black for a good reason coz he nuked me pretty bad. Missed targets, hiding behind the consultant instead of taking the lead, not being worth management material despite being given the responsibilities (designate not actual - i.e. salo ni ya mwananchi bado), unresolved customer issues, poor follow up and resolution of technical issues and so on and so forth.
Usually appraisal is two way (in theory?), but in my case, with no defence to speak of, I could only agree that yes I have failed. Sad but true. So now I'm just stressed and depressed. Hope the weekend will be too much fun to make me forget coz I don't want Monday morning to come, we are yet to conclude the appraisal.
My hope for the coming 6 months? Psalms 18:29 With Your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.
Labels: appraisal, employment, work
